Let Go My Norco

On Friday, January 25, 2013, an advisory panel to the U.S. Food and Drug Administration voted 19 to 10 to recommend moving hydrocodone combination drugs, such as Vicodin, Lortab, and Norco to the schedule II category of controlled substances. If the FDA follows the panel’s recommendation and moves hydrocodone combination drugs from their current schedule III to schedule II, prescribing practices would be more restricted. … [original article here]

Like many of you, I deal with pain on a 24/7 basis. When I am talking, laughing, smiling, or queening out, believe it or not, I am in pain. Here is an inside scope on those who live with pain— we have a high tolerance to it and we are incredibly strong. It is only when the pain is so unbearable that you can see it on our face.

Now each person has their own way of coping with daily pain. Many do the healthy-living (i.e., eating well, doing yoga, etc–check out these great posts). Overall, the majority try to keep themselves occupied so to not focus on the pain. What do I do? I keep my mind busy with some activity (i.e., work, watching some sitcom marathon on some ridiculous network [thank you, CLOO for the 3-day Psych marathon!!]) AND I rely heavily on my drugs, especially my precious Norco (hyrdrocodone/acetaminophen)– the cooler, pot-smoking cousin of Vicodin. Dr. Lupus prescribed a 180-count per month prescription, and I am expected to take one-pill every 4 to 6 hours. But as we all may have experienced, pain is not a uniform symptom. I have good days that I can take my 1-pill every 4 hours. But most likely, I will have days where I am taking 2-3 pills as needed (i.e., whenever I feel like it to keep my sanity). Why? Because- WHEN IN PAIN, I NEED MORE THAN JUST ONE MEASLY PILL TO QUIET THE PAIN. I have been taking Norco for over 3 years now. At first taste, one pill did the trick, but as time went by, I was needing more and more.  Taking hydrocodone is a vicious cycle- because users can form a tolerance towards these opiate drugs, which means you need more of it to have an effect. Personally, I am OK with that. As you read this, you are probably thinking that I have a major dependence on the drug. If you don’t think that, well, keep reading, because if I haven’t convinced you yet… I think I will do a stand-up job in the next couple of paragraphs.

Before I left the office today, I received an email notification that my prescription was ready for pick-up. Just as I was reading it, I smiled, swallowed the last four Norco pills and made a mental note to stop the pharmacy before crashing into my bed. Perfect timing. You see, after 3+ years of experience with the Texas Controlled Substance Act, I have picked-up a few tips and managed to never be without opiates and always with a “comfortable” supply (for those bad days). One day, I will disclose those tips. Unfortunately, during the past month, I had to dip into my “Norco” savings, and by dipping, I mean DIVING IN. I left nothing (oops). So, I was desperately relying on today’s pick-up.

At my neighborhood pharmacy, of which my hard-earned funds go to, I was told “it is too soon” to pick-up my Norco prescription and to “come back on April 4th”. I decided to not panic right away and pleasantly state that there may be a mistake because I was notified via email that my prescription was ready. Now, the following is the dialogue that occurred at the Walgreen’s Pharmacy in Sugar Land, Texas. Because I am so talented, I played the role of the classy diva, sarcastic diva, raving queen, and Diva Licious Jones (my tranny name).

The silly pharmacist continues to speak with me with some stick up her ass: “Did you take more than what you were suppose to?”

Classy Diva: “Fuck yes I did, how else am I able to walk, stand and have this heated conversation with you about my painkillers?”

Crap-pharmacist: “You are allotted 4-6 pills a day for pain”

Sarcastic Diva: “Oh sorry. Let me give that message to my body that is being attacked by its own immune system. I am sure it didn’t get the memo.”

Pharmacist: “The controlled substance law states…”

Raving-Queen: “I am going to stop you there. How about this. Why don’t you go get hit by a truck, or get cancer, or suffer from some painful disease like arthritis or lupus, and then, tell me if you give a damn what the controlled substance law says. It is OK, I will wait.”

Dumb-bitch who still doesn’t get it: “There is no need for that. You are just going to have to come back in 7 days. You will not get your painkillers”

Diva Licious Jones: “That is where you are wrong” [pulls the around-the-world-snap and struts out of Walgreen’s] *side bar- I strutted like a true diva but that shit hurt*

What was my next move. PANIC! First, I called my fellow-lupus warrior to bitch about what had happened and to see if I could bum a few painkillers. Second, I called my long-time buddy-past-lover/druggie to score drugs off the streets. How dare that pharmacist refuse my drugs! She was clueless to say that I would not get them today. I know it is possible to score outside the pharmacy, because the older classy ladies at my infusion clinic speak of this all the time. For fuck-sake, I buy weed from a 68-year-old diva (gotta love the pain-community)! So, I left my sure-thing-slam-dunk-move for last. I called in the same prescription at the Walgreen’s in the neighboring town… AND WON! #Rulesweremadetobebroken.

What is the bottom-line? Am I dependent on opiates? Maybe. Will I do anything to have a steady stash? Hell Yes. Like I said before, each person has their own way of coping with pain. I don’t judge anyone for eating grass, going to acupuncture, smoking pot, drinking pure lemon juice or etc.

Here is your Diva’s Note: I think at this point, fans, we need to do what makes us happy AND feel good. We just have to remember that every action has a consequence. I will smoke a doobie, sprinkle Norco on my ice cream, and drink glasses of vino until I can peacefully pass-out pain-free. We already go through so much that no one would ever understand, so why not make the most of it?

STAY FABULOUS!

Just Say No

… just remember that only we know what we’re going through each day. We need to do what’s best for us, not what others want us to do.

Beautifully said by my fellow-fabulous-lupus warrior, Vero. She reminded me today that it is OK to say “no” in order to stay healthy and happy.

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The Lupus Foundation of America recently published a nice article on saying “no” so that we don’t overwhelm ourselves with life: http://www.lupus.org/webmodules/webarticlesnet/templates/new_magazineback.aspx?articleid=3009&zoneid=67

Fans, remember that you are your number one priority. We must take it easy and one step at a time. Lupus is a life-changing chronic disease. Anyone who says differently obviously hasn’t been catatonic with pain. We have to accept it and start making the necessary changes so we can live everyday to its fullest.
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Stay FABULOUS and say NO

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Vero and me (December 2012)

Welcome Back- Tales from the Dark

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I am baaaack. Where have I been? No where spectacular and not in rehab. I am going to be honest and spill some raw truth– I was in a psychologically-dark place. A place where I looked forward to my next pill-induced coma so that I can be numb to EVERYTHING.

From November to December, I have been feeling the what I can only describe as the “lupus funk“, and as time went on, the funk got funkier. I was depressed. Overall, I just felt shitty with myself and my situation.  Every since I was diagnosed with lupus, it has been a battle- not only was my health failing but it had affected every aspect of my life. Because of lupus: 1) I had to move-in with my parents, 2) every move I make has to be supervised, 3) I am in bed by 7pm only to wake up in the middle of the night with pain, 4) I am always exhausted, 5) I can no longer drive, 6) all my money goes to medical bills, and 7) I am socially dead to the world, and etc. etc. etc. And to top it off, I still had to try to keep myself out of a hospital. I am sorry to have to admit this, fans, but I wanted to give up. I was tired of fighting and tired of smiling with hope so that others around can be assured that “everything will be OK”.

And that is why I have been absent for a good chunk of time. The reason I started this blog was to provide support and encouragement to my fellow warriors. I was certainly NOT in the state of mind for dishing out sunshine and rainbows (I couldn’t even queen out properly!), and therefore, refrained from writing. If I had written during my months of depression, it would have looked very similar to the chapters of a Judy Blume novel, a la Are You There God? It’s Me, Margaret. (*If you do not understand that reference, look it up, or you can trust I made a reference that was simultaneously brilliant and hilarious!*) My head was one hot-mess; not only was I blue, I was in a constant fog of confusion. I did the blog-community a service by sitting out for awhile.

So, why am I writing now? Easy- I feel psychologically more stable and do not have urges to swallow a cocktail of yummy drugs for reasons other than pain-control. I have been seeing a therapist on a weekly basis so that I can cry and have realizations. Plus, I hear fabulous people have therapists. 😉  (Diva approved)  I realized at the beginning of this year that:

1) I lost 2 months of precious time. We all know that lupus does not come with the gift of time. As lupus patients we are constantly told of the many “chances of this happening” or a “risk of that happening”. I was a baby who focused on the negative and spent all her time in bed feeling sorry for herself. Not the way to go.

2) I am still lucky– even with lupus. I have the best support system in my family, true friends, and my fellow lupus warriors. AND even after the crap year of 2012, I am still able to take a breath and stand on my own feet (with a little help from a member of my support system or cane).

The point-of-the-story is not to have pity-party in my honor because there are people who have it so much worse than I do. I am fortunate enough to be able to write this down. I write this awful truth in hopes that if you are in a “dark funky place”, you are not alone and have every reason to be depressed. Up to 60% of lupus patients will experience clinical depression, which is most likely the result of the continuous series of emotional and psychological stressors associated with living with a chronic disease. Helplessness and hopelessness are two common feelings associated with depression. Also, keep in mind that lupus flares can trigger depression. Just remember, that there are many resources out there to help you and that you are not alone.

Stay Fabulous!

Resolving the Energy Crisis

As many as 80 percent of people with lupus experience fatigue. Lupus Foundation of America

What is your biggest complaint of lupus? Pain? Lupus fog? Fatigue? All are crappy symptoms that we must deal with daily–sometimes gracefully and not-so-gracefully at other times. Today, I plan to queen out about FATIGUE. Lately, my conversations have been going something like this:

Regular female: Hi! How are you? How are you feeling?

Diva: I’m OK (lying through my teeth).

Regular female:  Well, you cannot believe the day I had! I blah blah blah blah, and then blah blah blah.  So, do you want to join the girls and I  to do stupid-girl things? I plan on spending 2 hours in getting ready, so to lure a shady man to buy one drink for me. And then, I am going to hopelessly fall in instant love with him- because he buys me that one drink- but then, I will be super upset because he will never call. Are you sure you are OK? You look a little beat.

Diva: Yes, I am fine (lying through teeth). I am a little tired (lying through teeth… full exhaustion and headache setting in) so I am just going to call it a night and drug myself to sleep. Have fun tonight (rolling eyes).

After dealing with fatigue for who-knows-how-long, it finally dawns on me:

Ladies and Gentlemen, we have an ENERGY CRISIS on our hands!

An energy crisis is any great bottleneck (or price rise) in the supply of energy resources to an economy. -from the experts at Wikipedia 😉 (…i have no idea what this means…)

Fatigue is no stranger to me, and it has become a blasted-barrier in my life. I have tried several recommendations to help win against fatigue, but I still find myself fighting that battle. Here are some easy tips from the Lupus Foundation of America:

Tips to Help You Manage Fatigue

  • Alternate activities with periods of rest throughout the day.
  • Establish good sleep patterns.
  • Plan ahead; for example, shop for gifts throughout the year.
  • Prepare meals in advance.
  • Eat a healthy diet and exercise regularly.
  • Stop smoking if you smoke.

Because of lupus and its adorable symptoms (i.e., including extreme fatigue), I have cut down from full-time to part-time status at work. Fatigue has really affected my productivity at work, and performing 150% 5 days a week was becoming less and less doable. Today on my day off, I proposed a plan to resolve My energy crisis. Before revealing my plan, let me break down my day to demonstrate the amount of thought and detail that went to such a logical plan.

1. Opened eyes from a 12-hour coma and crawled out of bed at 11 am (don’t judge it was my day-off) still feeling exhausted.

2. Perform my daily rituals of coffee, steroids, pain-killers, vitamins, and dulce de leche on a slice of toast (very Argentine of me ;))

3. Realized that I had a prescription of Norco (a painkiller) ready for me at the pharmacy. This was enough motivation for me to get out of bed… Showered at 1 pm. (again- don’t you dare judge!)

4. While at pharmacy, stumbled onto the vitamin and supplement aisle and noticed the following product: GNC Women’s Ultra Mega Energy and Metabolism Multivitamin. These timed-release caplets provide a gradual release of vital nutrients.

5. I read the product information:

Clinically studied multivitamin

  • With 1600 IU of vitamin D-3 for breast+ and bone health*
  • Calorie burning support*
  • Boosts energy and metabolism*
  • Supports mental focus*

In a randomized, double-blind, placebo-controlled study of 112 healthy volunteers, subjects taking the GNC vitamin and mineral blend in this product for six weeks experienced statistically significant improvements in markers of B vitamin and antioxidant status, as well as improvements in SF-36 Vitality and Mental Health scores compared to those taking a placebo

Advanced Nutritional Support

  • Includes 1600 IU of vitamin D-3. +Emerging research suggests that adequate daily vitamin D intake may play a role in supporting breast and colon health.*
  • Supplies B-vitamins that are essential for energy production and metabolism.*
  • Provides important bone-strengthening nutrients including 500mg of calcium, magnesium and vitamin D-3 that are essential in the development of healthy bones and teeth.* Adequate calcium and vitamin D in a healthy diet throughout life may reduce the risk of osteoporosis.

Calorie Burning Support

  • Features an energy and metabolism blend that helps boost energy and metabolism and support calorie burning.* The components in this blend also help support mental focus.*

Antioxidant Protection

  • Contains a premium blend of antioxidants including selenium, vitamin C and vitamin E to aid in supporting the body’s immunity.*
  • Combines lutein and zeazanthin to support eye health with lycopene, an antioxidant from tomatoes to support cardiovascular health.*

*These statements have not been evaluated by the Food and Drug Administration. This product is not intended to diagnose, treat, cure, or prevent any disease

GNC Women’s Ultra Mega Energy and Metabolism Multivitamin Label

5. Decided to give these pills a try. I am in need of vitamin B and D supplements and will benefit from the extra boost of energy (and metabolism– this diva is getting jiggggggly). Also, I would not mind the boost in mental focus.

6. Swallowed one (2 pills are recommended per day) at 4:30 pm. I already noticed one thing: these pills smell funny.

7. Today marks Day 1/2 of resolving my energy crisis with this multivitamin supplement. I plan on tracking my status every 2-3 days.

I know what you are thinking “Diva, you sure thought this through.”

Fans, don’t be too jealous of my well-laid-out plan (haha!). I did make a note in my trusty notebook about my new purchase, because I will be visiting with Dr. Lupus on Friday and want to make sure he knows of my new plan to resolve my energy crisis.

Diva note: Always tell your doc of all the medications (including vitamins) that you put into your body.

Stay Tuned… AND 

Stay Fabulous!

BITCH STOLE MY LOOK

As I have mentioned before, I lost my hair due to lupus and its treatments  starting in 2010 (click here for details). Many women experience hair-loss at differing degrees because of lupus. For about two years, I rocked my bald head around Houston (with the occasional cover-up on the cooler days or when having a fancy meal).

Rocking this look comes with some great perks… and some lows. The obvious perks include: 1) easy hair management (you shower and GO!), 2) showing off your beautiful face, and 3) showing the world that you have more self-confidence in your pinky-toe than any other long-haired woman around you. The obvious lows…. well… 1) being constantly looked at (which I didn’t mind), 2) being the topic of whispered conversations (“I wonder why she is bald…” etc), and 3) having to deal with ridiculous ignorance and stupidity (seriously, once a jackass came up to me and said: “Are you lesbian?… you have no hair so that means you are a lesbian. You shouldn’t be here.” Let’s just say he walked into my fist, and then walked out with a bloody nose. Somehow, I got banned from the drinking establishment…).

Diva note: Do not allow these lows (especially brought on by other people’s insecurities and ignorance) to bring you down. It is not worth your time or your emotions!

During my time of baldness I followed the words of my hair stylist (if you are in the Houston-area, check out these ladies at A House of Designersdiva-approved) and from my best male friend (who else would know about scalp therapy than a man with a great set of hair–check out thementoringsession): TAKE CARE OF YOUR SCALP!

Sidenote: I tried the steroid injections into the scalp by my dermatologist (a total of 13 into the scalp in one sitting). But after 5 sessions, I was not seeing any results!

I became an advocate of taking care of my scalp. I invested in great shampoos and condition (check out Nioxin products). Monthly, I visited my hairstylist for a buzz-check and for a treatment of Nioxin Scalp Renew Dermabrasion Treatment. This treatment is like a facial for the scalp, can only be done in the salons, and recommended for use every 30-45 days. I recommend also checking out Nioxin Diamax, a leave-on treatment that can be used with the Nioxin 3-part systems for thicker, denser-looking hair.

Nioxin, known for products for thinning hair, has taken the science of skincare and applied it to a new at-home hair-thickening treatment, DiaMax. The intensely hydrating formula—which contains niacinamide and panthenol, ingredients also found in some of the best skin-saving creams–directly infuses each strand with healing, strengthening, and protective properties for plumped-up, thicker locks (nioxin.com; $50). [credits: Christina Han; W Magazine]

By the beginning of 2012, I have noticed my hair was growing back AND thicker! This is great news even if I still have a bald spot in the back of my head (about the size of a fist). My hair still tends to abandon ship when I am going through a flare. I talk about how to cover these “character” spots in a past post: Methotrexate + Benlysta= ?? On the real, I certainly do miss my no-fuss-hair-less morning routine!

January 2012 with a dear friend. My hair was growing back blonde!

After loosing your hair, you come to realize that you are more courageous in choosing hair styles– because if you don’t like it, you know you can always shave it off and still look fabulous! I was rocking my own personal style with hair– half head shaved while growing out the other side. I loved my ‘do and was certainly the only-one rocking it in the City of Houston (…where the long-haired blondes and brunettes roam…).

April 2012

While watching E! Fashion Police (a diva-obsession), my auntie Joan Rivers was making a comment about Miley Cyrus’ new do. I couldn’t believe my eyes- that BITCH STOLE MY LOOK!

September 2012

Damn the man! <Slapping Hand on Forehead> NOW, in addition to receiving the usual “I love your hair” comment, a statement of “It looks like Miley Cyrus” follows!  

Which brings me to my quote of the day:

Imitation is the greatest form of flattery! 😉

Stay Fabulous!

Diva-Worthy Song of the Day No. 4

Excuse Me- I am Still Standing

I let lupus get the best of me! AGAIN! I hate to admit this but for the past 3 months, I have been in hiding and nothing, not even a huge bottle of CYMBALTA, could get me out of the dumps. I had lost my DIVA-ATTITUDE! You want to know why? Because, Lupus sucks the big ONE. I am so over this disease. Let me share my tale of terror.

FIRST, I had to come to the following as a 30-something-year-old woman: 1) I can no longer live alone and had to move-in with my parents, 2) I can no longer drive… people of Houston were in danger, 3) I can no longer work a full 50-hour work week, and 4) OPIOID DEPENDENT. If that wasn’t pyschologically-ball-busting enough, my body decided to join the fun. In addition to fighting off daily-minute-by-minute pain, brittle bones, and trying to function with a crappy-central nervous system, I come to realize that my kidneys have thrown in the towel and my ovaries felt the need to funk out (aka premature ovary failure. Now my 60-year-old tia and I can bitch about hot flashes together, and I can gain 5lbs by looking at a cupcake). Soon I will be telling tales of the diva with lupus nephritis. Surprisingly, my liver is still holding on by a string. Apparently, all that training of binge drinking and drug use I put it through during my younger years paid off. On top of that, I have been exhausted and fatigued because my lone-leukocyte from my non-existent immune system (thank you, Benlysta) has been fighting infections left and right, including urine, respiratory and folliculitus (infection of the hair follicles– lame).

Of course, I still had to deal with life. And I may have not done such a great job with dealing with it. I had responsibilities like: going to work, submitting a grant, doing maid-of-honor stuff for my friend (the bride-to-be), and still try to maintain my composure. AND people still wanted me to be social and attend birthday dinners and game night?!?! YOU HAVE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME! What I really wanted to do was: Tell my boss to go to hell, NOT submit the grant that won’t get funded because of some political reason, tell my friend that I could care LESS about her bachelorette weekend and that she could shove her royal-wedding theme bridal shower (her idea) up her small ass, and crawl into bed with two-handfuls of vicodin and Norco. HOW DARE YOU?!?

WHEW! There you have it fans, I just queened out.

All of this was physically and emotionally exhausting- which induces flares. I am confident that everything will be OK. I trust that I am in good hands with Dr. Lupus and I have tremendous support from my family and my close friends. These are the guys that are always there, even when I feel like shit. They get it. So, why am I sharing this story? I do not share my stories for your sympathy or your “I’m sorry”. Because, I am not sorry. I am grateful for this experience. I am realizing more about myself and others through this process. I am actually lucky.. VERY LUCKY. I am grateful to even be breathing and able to type this out to school my fans. 😉

Take your pen and paper out, fans. Because here is your lesson that you will never forget. If you are able to blink and take a breath, you are STILL STANDING.

I tell myself the following phrase everyday:

I have everything within me to conquer the world.

Now, I may do it at a slower pace, but DAMNIT I will do it. It sounds lame, fans, but we can do it. Do not let lupus (or anyone else) bring you down.

The DIVA is back and this is a turning point in my journey and I am looking forward it.

Stay Fabulous

Beauty is skin deep

“Beauty is skin deep and I am in a sh!#-load of pain” -The Diva

WARNING: This blog is dedicated to the ladies of lupus (sorry dudes).

While getting my infusion of Benlysta, I came across an article on allwomenstalk.com entitled “7 Great Make-up Tips for Ladies Undergoing Chemo…“. It made me think: “I wonder how many fabulous chicas in lupus pain look at themselves in the mirror and say ‘Geez, what has this disease done to me?!'” Maybe you haven’t because you are uber-fabulous, but I am going to be honest (and it may seem vain)… I have said those exact words. There have been moments when I look at myself in the mirror and do not even recognize myself. I know I am awesome but there are times where I cannot deny that my body image (defined as an attitude towards one’s body, especially appearance) is somewhat low. I blame lupus. I know I was NO MODEL pre-lupus but I have always loved my body and appearance. I had the attitude of “I can rock ______”, even if to others I looked like a damn fool.

Lupus and Poor Body Image: It is OK to Admit it

Lupus is a multi-systemic disease that mostly affect young women, and it is disfiguring. So it is no surprise that it may affect physical and emotional health. There are several reasons as to why lupus affects our body image… it’s because it affects how our body is looking! Are you on steroids (i.e., prednisone)? Go look in the mirror right now… is your face looking like the typical full-moon character that Disney usually draws up? Or, chew on this: Why is it that I am losing hair on my head but growing a mustache?! How about gaining 5 pounds within a 2-day span (how is that even possible when I barely can keep my food down from all the nausea)?!?! Do you jiggle? I DO.

Disease manifestations, disease activity, lupus treatment-related damage, comorbidities (i.e., other disease that tag along with lupus- osteoporosis, arthritis, renal failure, etc), and medications may adversely affect body image. Skin rashes, uneven pigmentation, vitiligo, scars, loss of teeth, alopecia (i.e., hair loss), facial hair, stretch marks, weight gain, fatigue, pain, depression, unpredictability of flares, or lack of independence all contribute poor body image in women suffering from lupus. This also can affect our quality of life. Although the literature on body image in lupus is scant and controversial, a recent article adds more evidence that body image in lupus patients is poor. If you would like a copy of this article, please contact me.

Younger patients and those with cutaneous disease activity or damage, or depression are more likely to have poor body image-related quality of life. The bottom line is that poor body image is a realistic problem that patients with lupus frequently face (i.e., I AM NOT ALONE… neither are you), and this needs to be addressed through focused research on these specific issues. Of course, body image-related quality of life can be dealt with through some effective interventions, such as cognitive behavioral therapy with a trained therapist (I have one… more to come on that).

How to Not Look Like You are in Miserable Pain

Back to the allwomenstalk.com article that motivated me to pop in two vicodins and type away. Although it addresses the women on chemotherapy (remember methotrexate is a form of chemotherapy), this article gives some tips on how to keep that healthy glow even though you may feel like crap, and some Do’s and Don’ts to make-up. Don’t hate on it just yet… there is some truth to it, and I think the tips can apply to all of us (regardless of the medications we are taking …keep in mind, lupus alone does some silly sh!# to our body).

Although I feel like crap, I have had some people compliment on my skin. I know it is the new skin regimen I adopted once I started to loss my hair. When I was bald, my face was my new money maker. Yes, my hair is back but I have not abandoned the skin routine. This is what I do (in addition to the cardinal rule of keeping your face clean), it isn’t much but I hope it helps:

1. INVEST IN A MOISTURIZER. My skin started to feel dry once I started taking medications and I looked like I aged soooo fast! I know I am 30, but just because I have lupus I do not need to look like I am 55. I do not use a very heavy moisturizer because I did not want to induce a bigger acne breakout. Not only was my skin super dry, but there are days where my skin was an oily mess, a la puberty-years. There is no reasoning to it. So, I opt to use a gel-cream from Garnier “Moisture Rescue- Refreshing Gel Cream”.  For the really dry days, I use Philosophy “Take a Deep Breath”. This gel-cream is oil-free AND it helps calm those morning red-blotches.

2. JOIN THE BB CREAM TREND. IT IS WORTH IT! BB creams are suddenly everywhere… and there is a reason. BB stands for “Beauty Balm” or “Blemish Balm” depending on the formula, and they’re basically tinted moisturizers with skin care ingredients and SPF built in. The last thing you want to do to disguise the fact that you are feeling like caca is to pile on a bunch of make-up… then you start looking like a woman who looks flu-ridden and should be working a pole. The major plus of a BB cream is that in one bottle you have just the right amount of coverage, moisturizer AND sunscreen. We all know how important sunscreen is to us!! Basically, a BB cream is a tinted moisturizer with a little kick and extra benefits. The tinted moisturizer helps even-out my skin tone, even during those random occasions when the redness and uneven pigmentation conquers my face. My first BB cream was from Garnier, because it was $12.99 and I wanted to see what the big hype was about. Once I joined the bandwagon, I went to Sephora and bought Smashbox’s BB cream. Smashbox is best known for its primers. Their version is fragrance-free (unlike most of the others), so it’s ideal if you’re allergic or sensitive to fragrances. It feels fantastic going on and looks great even at the end of a long, hot Houston day. I can be sweaty but still have a fresh face.

3. BRONZER/BLUSH the Color Back in. This is probably common sense. The use of bronzer will add some glow and life back to your pale skin. A light-hand will give just the right touch of sun-kiss that is needed.

Fans, please don’t forget that despite the weight-gain, hair-loss, and other-body altering stuff that lupus does to us, we will always be fabulous. Why? Because we are strong enough to go through and SURPASS something that the majority cannot even imagine.  And we do it with a smile.

Stay fabulous.